{"id":13392,"date":"2014-06-25T10:53:02","date_gmt":"2014-06-25T15:53:02","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.momstoolbox.com\/blog\/?p=13392"},"modified":"2014-08-27T17:29:13","modified_gmt":"2014-08-27T22:29:13","slug":"feeling-awkward-about-working","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.momstoolbox.com\/blog\/feeling-awkward-about-working\/","title":{"rendered":"Feeling awkward about working"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"from-my-journal-post\"<\/a><\/p>\n

This morning I walked my kids into the church for vacation Bible school. It was the first time for me this week. A friend of mine took them and brought them home Monday, as I was out of town for work. She also took and brought them home Tuesday as I had standing calls. Today I drove them, even though my friend, who lives super close to me, has to be there anyway to volunteer… even though I really have tons of work to do.<\/p>\n

So I drove my kids there, walked into the building, looked around at all my other mom friends and felt awkward. I felt bad for not volunteering. It was a little unsettling.<\/p>\n

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In my earlier days I served as a\u00a0VBS volunteer.\u00a0But then we hosted two foreign exchange students so, to prepare, I pulled myself off of other volunteer efforts to be there for those girls and my family. No more VBS, no more room mom stuff. Then I added Bible in 90 Days<\/a> to my load. It was virtual and I loved it. I was still contributing. I liked that feeling and I loved the feeling of being immersed in His Word and guiding others to the same.<\/p>\n

Now I work in a different way… in a non-volunteer way.<\/p>\n

I’m building VineSleuth and our app, Wine4.Me<\/a>. And I feel weird calling myself a working mom. But I am. And, even though it is wine-related, I have no doubt I am following the path God has set before me. But it does\u00a0feel weird. I feel awkward asking my friend\u00a0to take and pick up my kids each day even though it is on a route she is already driving– and I know that if the roles were reversed, I’d be puzzled as to why she just wouldn’t let me help.<\/p>\n

Asking for help is hard. Shifting gears is hard. Chasing a dream and doing something completely new, even when you are confident God is on your side is really hard.<\/p>\n

But I’m still moving forward. And trying not to feel awkward.<\/p>\n

Thank you, friends, for your love and support and kindness and many volunteer efforts toward my kids and others. I really do appreciate it. And thanks for reminding me not to feel awkward.<\/p>\n

I can’t be alone in this. Anyone else feel this way… Working or not?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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