Happy Tuesday, friends.
I feel like I’ve been through so much since I wrote last, and that was just 23-ish hours ago. Knee surgery went quite well. Either I’m still under massive influence of the drugs from the surgery or my body really is handling it MUCH better this time. Either way, round 2 has been exponentially better. I’m still taking it easy and also avoiding work emails. (If I say something a little off here, I think we’re okay. Work-wise, I’d better not take the risk!)
Other aspects of life have been a bit harder. You might recall that I’ve been talking about some garbage I’ve been juggling. Yesterday morning was pretty awful in that regard, but I feel like that might even be leveled off a bit. The timing of everything was really bad yesterday, but I just had to push on and pray, trusting Him. And so I did.
I’ve had several friends praying specifically and I’ve been clinging to Him myself. He is my rock. He is our strength. I am thankful for Him and I am thankful for the man He placed in my life as my husband. He has been amazing, too. I am so glad we are a team.
This has been some big stuff and I know He will see us through. He guided us through yesterday. I am thankful for that. Someday I may share details, but not for now. We’ll see what God’s plan is for that, too, when He wants me to know it.
Just know that, as much joy as I write about here, there is also pain and struggle. And I don’t understand it. But I’ve got Him to guide me. Even when I don’t know where to go or what to do, He does. And so I do my best to follow.
Here’s what grabbed me in Psalm 61 today:
Scripture: Psalm 61:2
from the end of the earth I call to you
when my heart is faint.
Lead me to the rock
that is higher than I,
When I am so weary and don’t know what to do or where to go, you, oh God, will guide me. You see more than I do. You will be my strength.
As I said, there is some icky stuff challenging me. I do not like it. I do not understand it. But I don’t have to in order to make my through it.
When I am very weary, God is always strong. He always knows the way. He is my strength. I will continue to lean on Him and try my very best to hear His direction and follow it.
He has been faithful and answered and guided me in so many areas of my life, and this will be no different. For that, I am thankful and, when I am worried, I need to place my confidence in Him. He’s got it.
I’d like to encourage you to do the same when you feel in over your head and/or weary.
Oh, Father, I am weary. I need you. Today feels so much better than yesterday. Yes it is still early, but I still feel confident you have this. Please guide this day. Please show us the steps to take. Be right in the middle of this and battle evil where we cannot without you.
You are higher than I. I trust you. I love you. Show us next steps as we need them. And thank you for getting us through what we have already fought.
Please, Lord, let anyone who is also weary see this and give you a try, even if they haven’t in the past. You really do guide us. You really do love us. When we seek you, you are there. Please, Lord, let others see and come to know that. Thank you.